Sunday, May 15, 2005
Mimpi Yang Sempurna
mcm lagu peter pan ajer.. tp sebenarnya... bukan lagu... tp tul2 mimpi yg sempurna....
aku pernah minta sama yg DIATAS utk mimpikan dier.... karna rindu yg teramat sgt kot.... "walau hanya dlm mimpi, walau hanya sebentar..." tk sangka lak lepas sebulan lebih... terkabul juga doa ku itu.... Terima Kasih Tuhan!!! Syukur Alhamdulillah....
Saat aku tgh "belek2"selendang, ku terpandang dier... dier tgh berdiri.... n laughing heartily....i cldnt c dat sum1 he was talking to... dat sum1 who was making him crack up like dat.... it was gd to see him laugh... at last.... finally.... bt y in dat "feel gd" moment, i felt shocked, pissed n disappointed at the same time.... the mixed emotions didnt make me take my eyes off him tho... he was wearing his light blue "show me the monkey" tees, his beanie...n his hands were in his jeans pocket, as usual. He looked gd... he looked damn gd....
i pretended to not c him, cont my search 4 a gorgeous selendang, prob to force my mind off him, it din work, obviously, so i tried to steal glances at him... he was still laughing, smiling widely... he looked sooooooo happy... i lurve dis side of him... n i saw who he was talking to... it wasnt juz the 2 of dem, it was the whole clan... i got more shocked... how come i din noe....??? i got more pissed....
tried to re-concentrate on the selendangs.... den i kinda hear his voice... n his fren's voice, its louder, its nearer, i cn hear dem joke, n he gigling.... den suddenly.... 'hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii......" while walking towards me wif his hands behind his back, looking shy.... i din say anyting... den again... "hi......" i still ignored him.... den he came closer... too close....he stood rite beside me... as in rite beside me..... n said "hi..." again... dis time..close to my ears.... i was abt to blush, bt i kip telling myself to maintain.... den i asked nat.... u hear dat? i tink i m hearing a fly speak! a fly cn speak.....?? he was taken aback, a bit.... he kept quiet... n nat felt awkward... in fact, she too was taken aback. y did i say watever i said? comparing him to a fly???? nat said "aku..... aku tk masuk campur...."den she went away, to zahri actually, who was waiting for her in his light brown shirt, by the railing.....
den he too walked away, 2 steps... den he turned ... n said... "assalamualaikum...."den i replied.. "waalaikumsalam..." he smiled n said... "wah! manusia ngomong dgn lalat?" irritated, i asked, "wat?" as in wat u want? he smiled again.... n gosh! i wanted to melt, in fact i wanted to die.... his smile.... is to die for!
he kip telling me to smile n ask wats wrong... wasnt i happy to see him n dat sorta bull... i juz made a stupid blank irritated face... den he asked me to smile again.... n pull me to the railing.... he put his hands ard my waist n pull me... with his left hand holding my left hand..... i followed lazily.... still looking super pissed....
he leaned against the railing n pull me close to him, close to his chest.... den again he asked me to smile, n wen i din, he cracked jokes... corny jokes.... the side of him dat i nvr noe... he cn crack jokes??? unlike him... den finally one joke cracked me up, i finally laughed n seeing dat, he smiled... cheekily.... a victory smile n den i kinda beat his chest.... bt in a manja way....he actually caught my hand wen i did dat n just hold my hand to his chest... using his left hand.... den wif his rite, he hug me n bring my head to his chest... i melt instantly.... while he caressed my hair slowly, i put my left hands ard his waist, n slowly brgt the rite one from his chest down to his stomach-waist area. i held him tite..... wif his left hand, empty now, he held my waist....we kept quiet.....
tho it mite juz have been a few mins... it felt like eternity.... like time juz stopped.... i din noe wat i was tinking.... def nt wat he was tinking... all i knew was dat i lurve dis, n i wanted it to be always like dis... n dat i love him n dat i dun ever wanna let go.... den i got snapped back to reality n let go of him. he was startled... maybe he was in dreamland himself.... den i smiled n said "dahlah" n did the beat-his-chest-in- a-manja-way tingy... he smiled n den pull my hands n led me into the queue...
he held my hands.... n i nearly slipped back into fantasy... bt i gain control n asked him... "knp sih ada di sini?" he turned, smiled n said... "kan udah ku bilang... mau ketemu ama kamu..." den i said... "yeah, rite.."n he said... "ya rite.." den i said... "the truth" he said.... "it's the truth, aku bener2 mau ketemu kamu, apa kamu nggak suka?" i said "ya, suka, tp aku mau tau yg bener... sebenarnya ada apa?"den he said..."ya.... aku kan sama anak2 yg lain...." den i asked... "tp knp? mas nggak ada konser kan, kalau ada pasti aku tau" he said "nggak, bukan konser... itu... apa... apa ya..." den i said "promosi..." n he smiled n said... "ya, itu... promosi saja... jd nggak lama disini..." den i nod....
n suddenly we were in a cab... n sitting damn close to each other... we were heading to my grandpa's place... for i dunno y... wen we reached n got off the cab... he held my hands again.... n den we met hidayah at the void deck n i remembered she said... we already looked like we r a couple... i juz smiled.... he turned to look at me n smiled...
den we walked up... n he was leading the way.... n i said..."sok tau aja jalan nya.." n he said, "ya.. aku tau kok... liat aja..." well, i let him led the way... he overshot half a flight of staircase wen i told him he overshot oready... he smiled n walked back.... den wen i was abt to climb down this step, he went down first, held my hand. i tot he was juz gonna held me bt i was wrong... he decided to carry me instead... i was shocked! n scared! i mean, look at his size, n look at mine! i was afraid he wld be unstable n i wld tumble! bt we din.... i was tooo happy...
too happy... dat wen i woke up.... i was all smiles..... it was a beautiful dream.... i cld still feel him... feel his waist..... n smell him.... mimpi yg sempurna kurniaan lllahi..... Trima Kasih Tuhan!
n maybe thz to nat n zahri too... for the influence..... thx!!! i wonder wen will i dream of him again... amore beautiful dream maybe??? watever it is... i m missing you dearie.............
sleep tite! wassalam....
Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 11:45 PM